MAY YOU FIND PEACE AMONG THE TREES

I will, just not today. Those were the thoughts that were ravaging through my mind as I made my way back to Rongai or as I like to call it sin city because of the numerous transgressions I had committed while confined therein. Free from the judging eyes and the condescending sneers the rest of the world served on a golden platter embedded with diamonds and covered with Swarovski crystals for that extra oomph!

Matatu it was, my usual, the regular only cause my pocket does not run deep, lol. Throughout that ride to sin city, social distanced and masked up, I couldn’t help but think about myself. How far I had come and how far I still had to and was willing to go. I had won some and lost some because that’s just what you do when you sign up for this thing called life after your 9 months contract in your mama’s womb comes to an absolute end.

I had been putting immense pressure on myself. “Be great!, do this!, do that!, edit like this!, get a better camera!, work harder!, smarter!, you are going about it all wrong!, don’t look at the analytics!, look at the analytics!, you should be writing not resting!, recording not wasting precious time with nothingness!” Lord knows I needed a break from myself and from my raging mind.

I wanted to tame that girl inside me that was putting all this unendurable pressure on me. I wanted to show her that there was more to life than crazy deadlines, overworking and thinking that you’ve already lost it all when you barely just began. So I left for Rongai, in my typical fashion. My heart was dead set on being lost in the vast field of nature, fresh air and the dust that comes with it. Because maybe nature and those things that come naturally in life would remind me to ease up and take life a day at a time.

I made my way to the famous Masai Lodge, the one that the first stage in Rongai is named after and rightfully so because it was every bit as breathtaking as I thought it would be. From the workers to the food to the scenery. Everything played it’s part in making sure I had achieved the mental state I had gone there to achieve.

I spent the vast majority of the time scouring through the landscape and listening to the heartbeat of that small river that flowed effortlessly and rhythmically near the premises as I waited earnestly for the Mexican pizza I had ordered.

I slowly realized that it was named Masai Lodge because the rooms are shaped like Maasai manyattas and honestly I felt kinda stupid for not catching on to that as quickly as I ought to.

When my food was ready I made my way back to the restaurant and took my time savouring every bite of that Mexican pizza. I couldn’t help but look over the landscape and getting lost momentarily in the eye catching scenery that had taken me there in the first place.

The monkeys played from a distance, the birds chirped and moved from tree to tree and I wondered if that’s how Mexicans really made their pizza. Because the pizza was that good, it could have used a little more salt (and Tabasco sauce because why not) but it was every bit as delicious as it looked.

When all was said and done, I realized that I will. I will achieve all that I have set out to achieve. All my dreams and aspirations will one day lay before me. It might not be today, tomorrow or the day after but some day I will, if I keep on pushing and working towards it. You will too, just not today. And that’s okay❤

Do yourself a favour and listen to Paranoia by Pop Smoke, Young Thug and Gunna.