THE SUMMER OF TWO THOUSAND & TWENTY

2020 is my year and here’s why;

**🥂Here’s to new beginnings and the possibilities it may bring🥂**

In the months preceding 2020, I did some thorough introspection that lasted weeks and extended into months. I had lost myself over the years and I needed to find me. The carefree me, the happy-go-lucky me, the me that wanted the best for me and would stop at nothing until I got it, the me that put me and everything that comes with me first. I seemed to have lost her somewhere along the road as I tried to navigate my way around this thing called life and I found myself missing her on numerous occasions. I needed her back in my life with so much urgency

The introspection paid off because I finally figured out what I wanted in and out of life. I found God and He found me. I excused myself from situations and persons who were bad for and to me. I rediscovered myself, befriended myself and set new goals and standards for myself.

Most importantly I forgave myself, for all the wrong choices I had made when I didn’t know any better (maybe I did, but that’s beside the point). I forgave myself for the many times I had put myself in situations that were risky and outright unhealthy mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

Throughout this process of rediscovery, forgiveness and calling myself out on my bullshit I was gentle with myself, always taking care not to be too hard on myself for the mistakes I made when I didn’t know better. But now that I know better, now that I’ve learnt my lessons I promise to be better, do better and to always do right by God and by me.

And as I write this while sitted tastefully at Meditteraneo Italian Restaurant in westlands breathing and finally knowing what it means to be free from the shackles I had put on myself I can finally say that I am happy and content.

**Forgive yourself first and then you will live**

I am well aware that happiness is not a constant state. I will have good and bad days, but one thing that’s for sure is, I’ll always have my back and I’ll never be too hard on myself. Today was one of those good days, why you ask??? Cause the dessert at Meditteraneo was free.

So as I embrace this new found happiness and traverse this new chapter in my life all I can say is; here’s to me🥂, to life🥂, to new beginnings🥂 and the possibilities it may bring🥂.